Wild Boy

I think I have been off the deep end too many times. Its weird though because for the first time I feel like I actually am not that crazy wild boy who would do anything anymore. I like to stay home and relax, I think I am just disillusioned with the whole Hollywood party scene. I know that I have met alot of people but I don't really want that type of life anymore. 

Last night, I talked to him on the phone for a few hours, and I felt like I was flying. Every time I talk to him, my walls come crashing down and honesty is the most important thing to me. I can't believe that there is some sort of mutual attraction between us... I dont want to jinx it so I wont say anything else... for now...

The Feeling

Do you ever get that feeling that things are finally going to be ok? Do you ever get that feeling that this relationship may be the one to last? I have this feeling permeating within me and I think that with the new year, there is a new sense of hope and a comfort in knowing things are changing. I suppose right now I am not in the most sound of mind... but i am never truly sound of mind. I really hope things between me and this person work out.

now about my love life. I know things sometimes don't work out, because I have experienced that too many times. I know I want things to work but you can't force it. At the rate it's going I can only hope for the best. Its also dangerous to cherish something doesn't yet exist and to hope it will make all your problems go away. Thats not realistic and it wont happen because love just donesnt work that way. I am so tired though- I am tired of the ones who never call you back, I am tired of the ones who are only there for a hot minute, I'm tired of dating to be absolutely honest. Yet for some reason I keep dating because I still have some vestige of hope that I'll meet someone eventually. I think that love is something really special, and I want to find it but right now it's so hard. The reason I suppose is because as it seems love always comes to you when you're not looking for it and thats why I think right now I am so enamored with the thought of a future relationship with this special person.

Now thats off my chest! 

First thoughts on 2008

so far it has been the most chill and relaxed year I have had. Last night with my friends was a night I never want to forget. We spent our mid-night in the Cube. The Cube is a 3 story building without windows and doors and the only entrance in is through a latter at the top. We had a few minutes there and so we lit a fire and had a beer. I can't say this is what I wanted to do, because it wasn't... but it became one of those moments I just don't want to forget. We had eachother and that was all. Afterwards we went to a party at a mutual friend's house. All the people there were awesome! Seriously there were so open minded and cool. After a few hours of rockband we left and so that was the start of the new year. And if the first day of the New Year is any indication of how things will go, then things will be wonderful! I am excited about everything!