The Feeling

Do you ever get that feeling that things are finally going to be ok? Do you ever get that feeling that this relationship may be the one to last? I have this feeling permeating within me and I think that with the new year, there is a new sense of hope and a comfort in knowing things are changing. I suppose right now I am not in the most sound of mind... but i am never truly sound of mind. I really hope things between me and this person work out.

now about my love life. I know things sometimes don't work out, because I have experienced that too many times. I know I want things to work but you can't force it. At the rate it's going I can only hope for the best. Its also dangerous to cherish something doesn't yet exist and to hope it will make all your problems go away. Thats not realistic and it wont happen because love just donesnt work that way. I am so tired though- I am tired of the ones who never call you back, I am tired of the ones who are only there for a hot minute, I'm tired of dating to be absolutely honest. Yet for some reason I keep dating because I still have some vestige of hope that I'll meet someone eventually. I think that love is something really special, and I want to find it but right now it's so hard. The reason I suppose is because as it seems love always comes to you when you're not looking for it and thats why I think right now I am so enamored with the thought of a future relationship with this special person.

Now thats off my chest!